Symbols have different meanings depending on their presentation and orientation. An inverted symbol often portrays it's opposite. An upright star is placed on a Christmas tree but it is undeniable that the inverted pentagram is associated with dark practices. The meanings of symbols and words change. Too often the use of a symbol is trite. If you need a heart symbol to show love, it casts doubts on your knowing what love is. Perfect love casts out fear and is expressed through relationship rather than symbols. I do have concerns that you are not tempted towards the powers of the dark side. That kind of power is at the expense of others and is a lose, lose equation. What you sow comes back to you. May you be blessed with waves of love and joy washing over you like rays of sunshine.